Monday, December 27, 2010

i'm here to blog again...

this time i've got lots of things to say. ITS 1.25AM and i can't get to sleep. because of LEO. RP net. i should have just changed my password before school hols start. I need to study like mad because I did not have enough time to download all the 6P. maybe I will start studying the first 4 6P for cognitive before choinging the last 6 in one day. I feel that this sem is a stressful sem for me. I'm keep on worrying about my DMA results will it affect me in promoting me to year 2. aiisshh!!! feeling so stressed up now!!! should have studied hard during sec 5 and go on to better course. instead of worrying about my result. i did not care much about my result in sem 1, but because of the intense competition my class have given me. I have become a competitive person.

school is gonna start soon. I feel that twitter is not a good place to share my secrets anymore. moreover here is a better place. because i know that this blog no one will ever read, cause i did not update frequently, so i can share and pour out my feelings here. no one knows. I feel that this class is very very competitive. this class everyone can draw, sing or play instrument. I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING. at least they can do photoshop. I TOTALLY SUCK AT IT. i think i'm gonna suffer during yr 2 and yr 3 . my FYP how??? so lost for words...

then i'm being sucked into the K POP craze. when i know that my results in polly are faling me. my mother is right. i'm never gonna make it.. still unsure about myself whether i can graduate from poly, if i still don't buck up. why my life is so tough??? can at least make it better for once.

I've been typing non stop. pouring out all my feelings for the past few months. i can't say it on twitter, i don't like others see the lazy side of me. when i think they know i am lazy. i've already tried my best to put my heart and soul when doing DMA. DMA DMA why must you be a curse to my life.. AND THERE'S DRAWING MODULE NEXT YEAR. i can predict i will get 15 Ds and I can't proceed to yr 3.

WHY MUST I THINK SO MUCH!!!! i've should have just tried my best, get a diploma and get the hell out of here. try a different course in uni if I can make it. I don't think I can make it to uni. I've always got the last minute attitude, when can i change??? i've been losing sleep from last night. I SLEPT AT 5.30 in the morning. cozz i keep on thinking a lot....

i feel better now.. after telling out everything that is in my heart. i'm feeling better, but i can't sleep. will watch some shows before i go to sleep.. JERLYN FIGHTING!!!! you can do it. don't keep on digressing. hope god can help me. of course i must help myself!!!! LET ME SLEEP TONIGHT!!! THANKS